my journey

i wished i blogged back then i think it would of been really helpful to have this style of journal and to now go back and read it, but instead i suffered this path alone. As the years have past i have met so many people with infertility problems explained and not explained...its the cruelist thing to ever go through and it changed me in ways i never knew until i was given the biggest gift of all..my children I have suffered this path twice to have my girls, i have PCOS (Poly cycstic oviarys) there r some radical ideas out there on how to solve the problem but for those of us that suffer it in the classic form infertility, excess hair, hard to lose weight etc to do anything is a major life transformation. I was lucky enough to stumble across sharkeys healing centre and use a herbal mixture to help me normalise and cleanse my body with the results speaking for themselves really. Im not sure why i wanted to share this with you all...i would like to hopethat anyone who reads this that is suffering this path knows that dreams do come true, that they are worth every little test and tear you will endurer while on this path and that we should talk about this...it touches so many people and so many people that i have met...i really find it quite scary because when its u u feel like no one else can understand...i wish i had know some of the poeple i have met when i was suffering it would of made it not easier but different

this layout im sharing started out being for my everyday moments album in the my life section, but it sort of spiralled and i ended up submitting it for the heartfelt journalling...still it might go into my album

the journaling reads

for the longest time i wanted a family. Chrildren to call my own. But at first my dream didnt come true. Much heartache, depression, tests and specialists took over 2 years of my life. Just as I was starting to accept out dream may never come true those 2 special lines turned up to change my world. I visited this part of my life once more when our dream included another world changing want. I look back now at that time and I look today at my beautiful children and know they were worth every tear and test endured.