WEIGHT WOES

Oh boy here i go...im going to admit something to myself
2 years ago...yes it would be...i had success on weight watchers...i didnt make it to my goal weight as i fell pregnant with emily...but u know i was pretty happy with were i was that i didnt mind to much...didnt really put on that much weight while i was pregnant...11 kg or there abouts...in the grand scheme of things and pregnancy thats nothing...and by tthe time i had emily i hadn't put on weight for a month....i was left thinking im sure i will be ok and go back just like i did when i had lilly to the weight i had started my pregnancy at...umm NO!! lol

When i came home from hospital i had about 7 kg to lose...i thougth thats ok...actually thats pretty good....but i didnt do anything about it...wanted my milk to settle down and get over the c section and there were a million reasons not too...during that time my eating went from good to so bad im embrassed...usually the person who will not purchase junk food became the junk food queen...and u all know the cycle it creates...i then craved it to the point that i couldnt stop

this being that time of year and thinking about resolutions i knew i wanted to do something about my weight...but i dont like to be a satistic and fail at things so decided i wouldnt wait for the new year...i was reminded of dr phil actually who said why put soemthing off that you can start today...so that was about a week ago...i wondered just what to do...didnt really want to return to weight watchers...i hate the $16 to get on the scales and the meetings bore me to death because i know how to eat properly its just the motivation that i lack most of the time. But what to do...low gi...such a catch phrase these days....low fat not sure i believe that to be true as we need fat in our diets its just the types that matter and so good fats get left out and then we crave...so this is finally what i decided upon...the total wellbeing diet Decision one made...get the book (in the sales to woohoo) i read it that night and woke up and started as it really had a good provision for a breastfeeding mother which is still very important to me that emily get everything she needs especially as she isnt old enough for soilds yet...i didnt make a start date that i would fail...just did it...but then i wondered what happens when i dont want to be true to myself...weight watchers has that way of wanting u to behave because someone will see what you weigh....so hear gos...if the people that read this dont mind im going to use u all for that.

so this is me still in 2006...one week ago....weight 97.2 kg....(hello bridget jones hehe)
of course will lose 30 kg...but really to fit back in my clothes would be nice as im still sometimes wearing my maternity clothes all pulled in and i hate it...im generally a size 14 or 12 depends
i dont usually like to weigh during the week of a diet...but 4 days in i couldnt help myself...wanted some motivation that this could actually work and to my surprise
weight...95.8kg...i know still embrassing and i am very embrassed by what i weigh its sick...but in 4 days i have lost 1.4kg...hello biggest loser

this diet is great...i dont know how i will cope with it when i go back to work...which is still a while away but its generally a balanced diet with very little processed food involved and no processed meats so im cooking everything but thats ok...its working...i havent craved a single piece of junk food in 4 days...and i know there will come a time that i will but i plan to use something from sure silm systems that my friend uses (pricey otherwise i would be there as her diet and mine seem very similar) and thats a breakout day...every few weeks ...she is allowed one break out meal where she can eat anything she wants...i think this is important because we all like those little treats and i love eating out too..so i know what i will be using my break out for...while im on holidays!!

no im not worried about my holidays as we generally only eat bbq meat and salads while at the beach so that fits in perfectly..: )

ok thanks everyone...expect to hear from me in a week with what i hope is more really really good news...: )

wow congrates to those that made it to the bottom of this post...what a long one